All Summer Long

At this point my emotional level is very high, you could say I am a master Emo at this level. This high emotional level is first of all caused by my test week. The thought of that I might not pass my economics test is frightening and discouraging. Although I do not have to fear about failing my year. Never in my whole school year my report card looked so good as in this year. Maybe this discouraging fear is caused by the fact that I need a vacation! Almost everyone around me is enjoying the beautiful weather outside and the ability to party till dawn. I am so jealous, I don’t want to study anymore. The other reason for my high emotional level is that I started to think about my social position in life. How will people see me? Why is it so exhausting for me to be around certain people?

I am an enthusiastic kid, I need enthusiasm and I will be enthusiastic. When people wont give me back that enthusiasm, what happens most of the time, i get disappointed. That disappointment is pretty fucking exhausting. But maybe i just have to be patient and wait till all this test week crap is over and people will have the energy to be enthusiastic with me. If this is not the case, i swear to god ill kill myself. Well not that drastic i guess, but i think i will snap. But as some of you might know that wont be the only reason for me to snap.

The last few weeks i have been watching all episodes of Sex and the City on internet. To tell you, it is quite educational, not only sex-wise but also relationship wise. But when you compare those relationships to your own or the ones you know. But then you think, what comparison is there to make, you are not thirty something, you are ten something, which sounds so immature and little. But we all want to act like we are more mature. Are the standards for every relationship the same, despite your age? On sexual level I don’t think this will occur to every relationship, maybe most of them. Also the standards of the girls in SATC are so much different then the standards in our little country. As much as I want to I don’t think I can compare any kind of relationship I had to those in the show.

As you can see, by watching a show I am gonna compare it a little to my own life. Which is a quite fucked up thing if you think about it. But I am sure i am not the only one who does this. Am I?

Anyway the third reason for my high emotional level is that I want to get out of this godforsaken country. I am thinking about the things I used to do all summer long. My old traditions while being away, and as the days pass I am longing more and more for those wonderful days yet to come. I get so impatient, i still have to wait for so many days.

But now I think who am I to complain? I only have two days of school left, but thinking about that the thought of, it is still 48 hours, slips into my mind and discourages me again for that horrific economics test tomorrow.


Music: Kid Rock - All Summer Long
Quote: Kut kabouters

Randomness cus i'm bored

do you know what i hate the most about my life?
That my day cant start before i drugged myself with my medicine...
Wtf is natural about that?
Stupid shit man

Goh

What Lotte Stolk Means

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life. You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip. People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

This is the hardest story that i have ever told

Yes geschiedenis is voorbij en ik zit lekker achter mijn laptopje met een zak ketchup chips! Mjam! i know we arent allowed to eat chips doordeweeks but whatever no one is at home. Dan zie ik opeens mijn hello kitty trillen, en hoor ik mijn altijd even vertrouwde POTC deuntje. Jahoor mensen het is weer tijd voor een lulgesprek met Da!.

L: Hullo!
D: Heej meisje...
L: Hmpf dat meisje.
D: Wat ben je dit weekend vrouw geworden dan?
L: The Fuck?
D: Ja je date, ik dacht eigk niet dat t zo uit zou pakken maar cool for you.
L: Okay Da knock it off, je kent me dat doe ik niet hoor, niet een avond.
D: Dus helemaal niks gebeurd zaterdag? ook saai, net zo saai als mijn zaterdag.
L: Dat zeg ik niet.
D: Ik wist het!Haleluja!victory
L: Doe normaal
D: Ja dat is het toch?
L: uhm nee, zo wil ik er niet naar kijken...
D: Ennu?
L: I dunno
D: Lot....?
L: Ja i know je kent me...ik weet gewoon niet wat ik nu moet doen of denken.
D: Gosh meisje
L: Fuck off, wat heb jij zaterdag gedaan?
D: Gehangen hehe, ik kwam wout en thos tegen.
L: hmpf
D: Silence?
L: Hoezo zou ik dat willen weten
D: Kweenie ik dacht dat jullie weer schoon schip hadden
L: Maybe
D: Maar?
L: Zij behoren tot mijn verleden, in mijn verleden waren we buddies nu wil ik ze niet kennen.
D: Je verleden van anderhalfjaar geleden.
L: Dat zeg ik verleden
D: Dude...
L: Woman?
D: Ik vinnet gewoon abnormaal dat jij eigk zon duister verleden hebt
L: Geen idee waar je het over hebt
D: Maar t is niet allemaal verleden right?
L: uhm
D: Ik bedoel je hebt er wat gewoontes aan over gehouden...
L: Like?
D: Je blowen, je roken, je angst voor je eigen medicijnen, je beeld op de drugsscene?
L: Gast i sound like a junk now
D: Hahaha you kinda are
L: Am not
D: Echt wel!
L: Da kappe, ik zweeer t je! hehe
D: Iig ik vind godsdiensten maar dom
L: Mee eens...denk ik. hoewel...
D: Wat?
L: Nee laatmaar, ik ga
D: okeej Latertjes
L: Ciao Bella!