no more pretending, trying to be someone I'm not. No more feeling sorry for the one that I am.
Live now, live real, forgive and forget, though forgetting is the most difficult. Let the dried up river stream over my cheeks again, just let if flow. But in the back of my head i know i can't. I can't cry anymore. I've gotta cool down, before making those choices again, give it all up for that one feeling. I would do it all over again.
The desperate search for that one feeling, but no more pretending, i've gotta show the world who I am. What you do to me is a mysterie, who would to that to me is the future. Ive been changing but you will never see me now. Thats what I would say, it's all about changes.
Tears that can't find their way out, anger that is pushed away...and me myself and i are so far away.
trying to scream to the world what i feel, scream till it hurts you, cuz these things i shine are not what i meant to say. I want this, I want that, all i want are two warm arms to fall asleep in. What I fear the most is to loose it again, and feel that way. My fear is to make those same mistakes. someone to laugh with, someone to feel safe with, someone who can hold me back and let me go on the right time. When the time is there it will.
What you will never know is that i never really did, I never really dared to take the chance, tried to take the step off the cliff. Another weird collection of my feelings, summoned by some music that will be sacred for me again. Because if you will push me I Will, but do not let me, don't let me do it all alone. If you could only watch me fall, If you could only see when my time is there to fall you can catch me again. Because it seems I have done it again...with every breath, standing over the edge. Because I cant handle that shit that i'm into. I need you and you know who you are
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